The Passion of Meryl Streep

Hello Readers!

You find me in a better mood today. Life was a little dark and depressing and I was having one of those I'm-not-good-enough-to-be-an-actor episodes, when I was reminded on how life has better things planned for us, even if we don't see it at the time.

What brought on this mood you may ask?

Well once again the Mouse said no to me, even though I was told I was absolutely amazing, but due to budget, sadly it was not a possibility this time. Then I was given another shot for another show with them, and made it all the way to final callbacks and I'm still anxiously awaiting to see if I'll be thinking fish are friends, not food. I had another audition for a theatre doing t.o.s., which seemed to have gone wonderfully, but was not called back, as well as not hearing from Universal if I would be paling around with Dr. Doom. So within a few days, a previous week that had been glorious, was for a melodramatic sense, crashing down around me. Now true, I am still working at Nick and was approved for the improv show (yay!) And true, I am doing a show at the Orlando Fringe Festival, which is pretty impressive. And also true, I am contracted to do a pilot of a new t.v. show. And also very true, I got to do a cast recording of the workshop musical I was in, where I was told at the studio I have a great voice (over the microphone; kinda a passive aggressive comment, but what the hey.) Yet with all of those truths, I was feeling kinda low. For some reason, I did not feel like I was a good enough artist - that something was wrong. And as I'm sure my bestie Leannis was thrilled to be hearing for the umpteenth time of me moving to Orlando, I was having another career crisis ;). I was trying not to have a pity party.
Because it's true. This life can be difficult. There are no guarantees that you'll go from job to job. That you won't have to work a "normal" job to make ends meet. That getting one gig doesn't make you a horrible person. And I realize this topic comes up often in my blog, but I feel like it's an important reminder to myself and to people in the arts, and for life, in general, and should be repeated often since we only have one life.

Live with Passion.

Look at what you are doing and find the good in it, or at least find something that gives you goodness in your life and enjoy it. Find the passion of living everyday. As I watched the making of Julie & Julia today, I was reminded about a few things. First, that I hadn't written in my blog in a while and I was breaking a promise to myself. Second, that people like Julie and Julia found passion in life and embraced it every moment. Third, that Meryl Streep is amazing and she brings so much life and, you guessed it, passion to her work. It was all a big connection for me with blogging and life and being an actor and not letting life pass you by, on all sorts of levels.
So what's my point today. Well, that I will, I promise with all my passion, to write in this blog more often. I have so many people who support me in this, that they deserve something back. Also, I will remember that I need to look at what I'm doing today and enjoy it! Bring passion to it! Forget about tomorrow! (Not completely, but remembering that today is important too.) And finally, I got into a show at Mad Cow! I will be playing Junior Mister/Gent/Clerk in The Cradle Will Rock. It all happened very quick and was exactly what I needed. Life held back a few things, yes, but it gave me a real nice present in return.

So TypeCast Wants to Know: Was there an event in your life that made everything else better? Something that, when it happened, put other things into perspective?